What if? 

I did not sleep well. No dreams I think. No morning shower. I have mixed emotions. I can’t focus my mind on anything. What if? I still want to see her. I still want to be with her. I still want to be by her side. What if? I do not want to disappoint her! I do not want to make her cry! I do not want her to be unhappy! What if? I cut my nails this morning! It is not much, but at least it is a something. There are so many things that I can do to make my life better! Is there such thing as a friendship between a man and a woman? 🙂