Money makes the world go round

I have to do the laundry. I’m not in the mood for it!

I have to throw out the empty beer cans because my landlord comes over in the morning. I’m not in the mood for it!

My mind works like this: when something bothers me… I play the victim card and I complain about things like laundry or empty beer cans.

What’s bothering me?

Money!

I haven’t received my last month salary yet. I borrowed 1900 to pay the landlord.

I withdrew all the money from my savings account to buy a new phone and beer. They weren’t big or many, but they were savings. It’s a concept that reassures me. It gives me hope that I’m capable of managing my own situation. Not being a financially retarded!

I also have a debt to the bank. 5900 from a few years back. My goal was and is to pay them back this year. This goal becomes harder to achieve as months pass by. I don’t like debt. They make me feel financially retarded!

I should be glad or at least optimistic: I have a new phone that I like very much, I’m healthy, I have friends that help me financially and emotionally in tough times, I live in an apartment that I like and I feel like home very often. I didn’t have this pleasure for many years.

Instead it bothers me that my savings are zero and that my debt keeps growing.

At least I’m not in depression because of the laundry!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

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