Yesterday it was chaos and order!
I had some work to do at the office. That was good. Having something to do is good! I hate the days when there’s nothing to test! I don’t like it when I go to the office and there’s no work to be done. It’s boring!
It has something to do with Mixpanel. A tool we use for tracking purposes. You are a client, you do some actions and those should be saved in Mixpanel. But it was hell yesterday! That tool didn’t like me! It didn’t create an user profile for me! I could see my actions in real time, but there was no history. In fact, there was no user created in history. That didn’t stop me. I tried to make it work over and over again. It was not hard, but it was annoying as hell. When I got home, I was very tired. I don’t remember the last time I was so tired after work! 🙂
I almost fell asleep on my home couch when I got home. I managed to get up, I took a shower, I did the laundry, I drank two beers and I went early to bed.
I woke up very early. I have to be on time because the board members and top management of the group will be at the office. “Please make an effort to come earlier than usual, 6:00 if possible, because they won’t stay for long and want to meet all of you.” It’s cold today!
I have to do the laundry. I’m not in the mood for it!
I have to throw out the empty beer cans because my landlord comes over in the morning. I’m not in the mood for it!
My mind works like this: when something bothers me… I play the victim card and I complain about things like laundry or empty beer cans.
What’s bothering me?
I haven’t received my last month salary yet. I borrowed 1900 to pay the landlord.
I withdrew all the money from my savings account to buy a new phone and beer. They weren’t big or many, but they were savings. It’s a concept that reassures me. It gives me hope that I’m capable of managing my own situation. Not being a financially retarded!
I also have a debt to the bank. 5900 from a few years back. My goal was and is to pay them back this year. This goal becomes harder to achieve as months pass by. I don’t like debt. They make me feel financially retarded!
I should be glad or at least optimistic: I have a new phone that I like very much, I’m healthy, I have friends that help me financially and emotionally in tough times, I live in an apartment that I like and I feel like home very often. I didn’t have this pleasure for many years.
Instead it bothers me that my savings are zero and that my debt keeps growing.
At least I’m not in depression because of the laundry!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂